My life is such a waste
Begging for something to work this time
But why can’t I relate?
Feeling all I do is get what’s mine
Holding on to faith
Never gave me nothing, but despair
So why do I create
Just to be swallowed?
I can’t take!
(We have a start!)
I can’t take!
(We got a fantasy!)
Come what may!
(We are the stars!)
I can’t wait!
(I'll take what’s mine!)
Been hating all this time
Before I crawled inside!
Been hating all the faces of everything that I could find!
Been hating all this time
Too far to cross the line!
Been hating all the faces of everything that I could find!
I cannot take this place
Burning up inside this space of mine
So why can’t I replace
Feelings I find hard to really find?
I try, but I can’t taste
Memories they always fuck with me
So why do I create?
Just to be swallowed
I can’t take!
(We have a start!)
I can’t take!
(We got a fantasy!)
Come what may!
(We are the stars!)
I can’t wait!
(I'll take what’s mine!)
Been hating all this time
Before I crawled inside!
Been hating all the faces of everything that I could find!
Been hating all this time
Too far to cross the line!
Been hating all the faces of everything that I could find!
Find!
Find!
Find!
Find!
Find!
Find!
Find!
All my feelings have been eating all of me!
Feeling tired
Is there something wrong with me?
Been hating all this time
Before I crawled inside!
Been hating all the faces of everything that I could find!
Been hating all this time
Too far to cross the line!
Been hating all the faces of everything that I could find!
Find!
Find!
Find!
Find!
Find!
Find!
Find!
This speaks to me. I served my country to come home and be rejected by everything and everyone. Ive been accused of a crime I didnt do. Every day I want to kill myself and know I cant. Im trapped in the hell that is my life. I constantly feel like Im drowning. Music is the only thing keeping me sane. Im alone, truly and completely. I hate everything with every ounce of my being now. Im bitter and filled with rage...I cant even remember what being happy feels like. I miss it so much. All I wanted in life was to be happy. But now Im alone and suffering and none of the people in my life give a shit about anything but themselves. I sincerely hope that everyone feels what I have felt for as long as Ive felt.
I think bands such as Korn and Slipknot can be used both positively, for motivation bc it´s very strong and angry music, very hard and powerful. You can also if you find yourself having a selfdestructive period in your life and you can fuel the selfdestructiveness by listening to maybe Korn. I did that in my early teens and it was not healthy. Now i am a different person, with different problems, and now it´s healthy for me hearing especially old Korn. It helps me get to what i call beast mode where i feel i can break any opsticle. So i guess it can both be unhealthy and very healthy to listen to.
This was the first song other than this rap crap i heard growing up in san diego cali. Being puerto rican, i noticed that i would never be a one of the mexican crews here. While on deplyoment overseas this was one of few songs i had on my playlist that i did have. Shit kept me literally alive. On guard shift i had korn. during ticks i had korn. When i looks at my m4 during the hot as fuck summers in the logar province afghanistan, i rwmwmber looking at my m4 and thought about suck starting that fucker, i would play this bery song and immediately played this song and fucker kept me going. May seem cheesy, but after a few drinks felt like writing and sharing this